Staring out my window,I waited for akpan! I had been calling him for d past 5mins and he was no where to b found!"Mschew dis driver ehn",I shook my head and stared harder at the interlocking tiles on the ground outside!A lot of the tiles were missing!That was d way my life was!A lot of things were missing!I was 32,single,not in a relationship. There was something else I lacked,self confidence...I couldn't muster d courage for anytin adventurous...I was good being in d quiet corner and observing...Today however was going to b different-hopefully...I was resuming at Shell Oil,my biggest dream was finally unfolding...what I dreaded d most was my co-wokers reaction...would dey shriek and stare rudely or would it b like in secondary school???
I gained admission into Queens College Yaba and I was totally excited abt it..on monday morning,my mum put on my uniform and started whispering to me words of encouragement and confidence which she did all d tym...I sed bye to my mum hastily and complained thru out my journey to skul dat d driver was too slow...arriving in my class,I was late and as such,my teacher brot me to d front of class amidst d scared looks on people's faces..."Class,meet Annie Williams,she will be joining you all" she said....d next tin I heard was ,"She is a ghost","She is scary","Y r her eyes shaking",her hair is gold"....tears streamed down my face and I ran out of d class....I neva came back..d experience ruined me and my mum had to send me to london for schooling.....
"Honk honk",akpan announed his arrival.I picked up my hermes handbag that my elder sister bought for me!she called it my "luck n confidence kit"..I had never had a chance to use it before but today was going to b an exception!One last glance at the mirror showed my unblemished skin and unsteady grey eyes!Hoping that my dark blue tight fitting gown and black shoes were the ryt choice,I dashed into the car.
Listening to Akpan rant only increased the pace at which my tummy churned and turned.The worst case scenarios kept popping up like comic dialogues at different angles of my head! The "what ifs" were so many that one side of me wanted to instruct akpan to turn back while another side screamed "Oh,shut up and get this thing over with"!!!Oh well it was just from 9 to 5pm...I could live with that...Entering the hallway,I could feel the stares olredi! Nigerians are so rude when it comes to staring! Ma feet began to feel sticky in my patent leather shoes.I took the lift to the admin dept and after a few words,I was giving my I.d and other necessary information!Looking at my I.d,I almost burst into laughter!I looked like a deer infront of the head lights of a keke napep!I was squinting and there was a deep crease on my fore-head!Urghh!I followed the assistant as he directed me to my office!It was glass all through n beautiful bt like a deep cut without a plaster,I felt exposed!Staring at the fresh flowers by the window,my mind cast bk 2 my first and only relationship...it ws three years ago...my depression was taking a toll on my eating habits and I had jumped two dress sizes to a twelve...my mum made me join a gym...jogging to the gym was terrible...d part I hated d most were d obese children who saw me as their comic relief!
Sometin caught my eye one day!He ws 6ft 5....well built,broad shouldered n Caramel coated...he had sweat dripping all over as he lifted the 5kg dumb-bells...My heart took 2 jumps in a span of a mili second!Just when my common sense told me 2 pick my eyes from dis demi god and realise he wasn't my class,he looked up.toweled his face n killed me with a dimpled smile!I managed a feeble smile in return n continued self-conciously on d cardio!!!! At the end of my gym session,I stepped out into the sun n jogged slowly towards my apartment!I saw his shadow,then heard him panting so close,d hair at the back of my neck stood like it ws reciting d national pledge! "Hi,my name is Lekan,I know you are Annie"!I almost stoPped in my tracks!Did he just say he knew my name.I continued jogging n he followed relentlessly at my back!"Hey,stop for a bit nau!I jus want to get ur number",he said as he jogged at my back!At dis information,my brain began to process diff things;what does he want wiv me!a frnd wiv benefit?he wnts 2 dump me after using me?Hell no! My foot against a stone sure got me outta my tots as I fell face flat on d floor!So ashamed of myself, I feebly stretched out my hand to meet his halfway! He pulled me up so fast n hard that I landed on his well built chest and melted instantly! It was difficult to let go but I did mili seconds after! I said my thank u n picked up my pace conscious of my back! He didn't follow and even though I should have felt relieved, I felt a sickening
pain in my guts! I was going crazy bcos of sm1 I dint know other than his name or was it bcos I cldnt bliv a guy like dat will want to talk 2 me let alone ask 4 my number! I pulled off my trainers n slowly dragged my lazy chubby self 2 the bathroom!...
To be continued! Cheers!
Hmmm cant wait!!!!!!
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